In an instant

Life is such a delicate balance. Life can totally change in an instant. On Friday, I was driving home from work. I had a craving for a Mocha. I pull into the center turn lane and wait for traffic. Unfortunately I learned why many people refer to these lanes as suicide lanes. Next thing I know a white Toyota is coming at me head on full speed. Next thing, air bags are everywhere, smoke is everywhere, and I attempt to get out of my car. I find my left foot is not working. This is where the kindness of strangers comes in. People are everywhere in the bitter cold. Calling 911, asking if I am OK, leading me to sit down in the backseat of my car since the car is not on fire. The ambulance comes, and they load me in to take me to the hospital. My life is changed forever. I am a stubborn person, and do not like having to rely on others for things. I have had to learn to trust people (the ambulance drivers not to drop me, the nurse to come and give me pain meds when I ask, my husband to assist me with simple things getting dressed, getting to the bathroom, everything!) I do not like this feeling of helplessness. I am confined to my bedroom, because the way this house is set up. The bathroom is upstairs, and so is he bedroom. I literally crawled up the stairs on hands a knee's to avoid any weight bearing on my left foot.... oh did I mention the chest bruises, and injuries there?? Crutches are very painful to use because of the chest injuries. I never knew skin could turn that color (deep violet/scarlet) I am grateful for my husband who has taken over the role of primary caregiver for the kids. This has been an adjustment, but he is handling it well. We have had many offers of assistance from friends and neighbors. Right now I don' even know where to start. I need to call the orthopedic surgeon tomorrow, and hopefully will be given an idea of when surgery will take place, as well as how long it will be to recover. I don't mean for this post to be a whiny one, just amazes me how life changes so much in an instant!!